Silver Jubilee and Beyond
2007 is special for the world. It will be a quarter of a century since it was blessed with me. But the same cannot be said for myself. This year brings with it the harsh reality that i might have only as much more time left in this world. No fantasies, no hopes for a longer life. This profession might leave us dead in 10 years time, so why think about even another 25. The next reason is more dreadful and is the topic of this post.
Marriage...Hmm... that sacred institution called marriage. Friends, classmates abd batchmates seems to be marrying off rapidly.. and i am being part of an ever dwindling minority-bachelors. I dunno why, but the very thought of it scares me - not the dwindling number of bachelors, but the thought of getting married. I dunno if it is abt the additional responsibility that comes along. I dunno if it is the insecurity of not being mature enough. I even dunno if it is thought of spending the rest of the life with one lady, that scares me.
I'd definitely want atleast another 3 or 4 years to get settled in my career. That means 28 or 29 would be the age when i would ideally even think considering it. Now that 3 or 4 years would fly by in the whip of an eyelash, i had seriously began thinking about what i wanna do with my life. And all that happened around me began to have serious impacts on my thought process. And all of them really making me ask myself whether i really wanted to get married. Honestly, at this point in life, if u'd ask me, i would probably say i am gonna stay a bachelor for life - a chronic bachelor! It might be seeing the failure in many such relations that influence my decision... or it might be because i am still not serious about life; and as mentioned above, mature enough to handle the nuances. Or, it might be because i am sure i cannot marry the one whom i would really have loved to.
I am hoping, as time goes by that something or someone would make me realize the truth. They might only show the way; i would have to walk it. I would have to make those decisions, and i sincerely hope my mind remains clear and focused.
8 comments:
"might be because i am sure i cannot marry the one whom i would really have loved to."
Satyam para, isn't it the reason???
And i think you still have time to make a relation WORK! and regarding a BARE truth that u told. That you would end up DEAD in 10 yrs in the sw industry! Entha uddeshiche????
As i said, even i am not sure... If i had been, i would have said so :-)
well, u've heard of "work is killing me" rite?
have given it 10 yrs ;-)
"might be because i am sure i cannot marry the one whom i would really have loved to."
Hmm.. Chettaa.. Rightly as Abhi points out.. Isnt tat the reason ???
S\W job ... Hmm.. U leave me confused... abt waat decision i have to take in my career... From noww on ..
Hey Hari... marna tho ek din sab ko he... jitni jaldi ho sake utni jaldi :D
:( :(
Almost similar feelings here... and the fact that I belong to the XX chromosome species makes things more difficult.. Esp when people wanna know the reason why am delaying it..
- Me (u never told me that u updated the blog..)
Nice one chetta !!! Followed this link from hari's blog .
Don't ever take the decision of being a chronic bachelor . Paavam arjun paadu pedille . He wouldn't want to overtake you .
Abhijith
Hehehehe...
Many happily married people told me this is just a passing phase and i would soon get over it.. What they did not tell me is if they regretted the decision later on ...
as harishree asokan emotes in thilakkam "oraale oru abaddhathilottu thalli viudmbo enthoru santhosham"
The one catch in this blog like others said, " i am sure i cannot marry the one whom i would really have loved to."..elaborate that pleaseee..
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